So another birthday party last night. It was fun and great and super laughy and all.
A friend of mine tried for 7 years to get pregnant with her 2nd child. She was luckily successful last year and now has a 7 week old baby. She brought her to dinner. Everyone was passing the baby around and cooing and kissing her. It was very sweet.
And so so sad.
I am so happy for this friend of mine, OBVIOUSLY. I just had the slightest twinge of jealousy, which doesn't usually happen to me. I most often find myself cooing along with the others, making funny faces and breathing in that delicious baby smell.
I'm not sure why I was struggling. Maybe it was because I wasn't feeling well and didn't have the energy to be positive. Maybe it was because I'm (still) on my period, which is like cycle 30-something.
Or maybe I'm turning into a bitter old hag who can't be trusted around small children. I'll be the friend who you're afraid to let hold your baby because I might caress it Lenny-style or put it in my trunk and run away with it.
On the optimistic side of not being pregnant, the sushi was divine.
Sushi - yum!
ReplyDeleteMan I'm sorry it's been such a sucky, hard time.
you know I think we all have/had those times when even when we were happy for other IF women getting PG, and we knew how long they waited, how hard they struggled, we still wanted to know WHEN IS IT MY F'IN TURN?"
ReplyDeleteI think what you're feeling is normal...but ok...you're going to be Ok. :)