I Love Bloggers

Before I got pregnant with L, I had just barely lost about 8 pounds.  It seemed that the minute I got pregnant my body was like, "I don't think so bitch!"  And promptly packed those 8 pounds right back on.  It appears my body is an asshole like that because with no change in diet or exercise, I have gained 5 pounds in the last week.  Now, I did spend the weekend in New York, and while there were a few treats and delicious meals, I was pretty much walking around all day for 3 days so I think this 5 pounds is, to say the least, unwarranted.

Now about New York....

The city was, of course, amazing.  But I'm not going to talk about that.  I'm going to talk about the women.

This is the second time I have done a girls trip with these ladies.  Luckily they invited me along to Colorado in October and when E's recent adoption fell through, we all decided it was imperative to get on a plane and show her our faces.  If you've never met blogger friends in person, I highly recommend it.  In fact, I WANT TO MEET YOU!!  Seriously.  I really do.  Let's plan it.

It's so amazing to be in a group of ladies that knows exactly how you feel and what you've been through and what your story is.  Sunday, a few of us went to FAO Schwartz for no other reason than it is famous (and okay, to dance on the giant piano.)  Of course it was filled with wide eyed and wondrous children.  It was so fun to see the magic in their eyes.  I said to Amanda, "It's so cute how kids just find joy in everything"  She smiled and said, "I know.  It makes my heart hurt a little."

Obviously I teared up because I am a cry baby, but also because I knew that she couldn't say that to anyone in her regular life and have them understand the yearning and ache that lives in your heart, pit of your stomach and uterus when you want a baby so badly.

This community has saved my life over and over.  I'm so grateful for it.

Now... let's plan a trip.

Thought Vomit Thursday

Can you believe it's TVT again?  It seems that every other post I write is a TVT, so either I need to post more, or just get used to thought vomit as the format for all of my posts.  Oh wait, it already is.  So here goes.

- I am not so good at the Photoshop.  I've tried to figure it out but mostly I just screw up the pictures and then close them without saving the ridiculous changes.  Right now I am attempting to make a scrapbook of L's first year of life but I don't really know where to get that sucker printed so I am resorting to the online one you can select in Photoshop.  That is, I'm waiting for my 80 iPhone photos to upload into that program right now.  Perhaps I need a new computer as well.

-  L woke up at 7:30 this morning, which I realize is not that early but I was fucking tired and tried to get the Hubs to get up with him and let me sleep for just 30 more minutes.  He wouldn't do it and I turned into a holy terror on his ass.  Okay, I was being slightly unreasonable, and I probably should have kissed him goodbye when he left for work.  I'm a Scorpio.  It's a curse and a blessing.

-  I'm not sure what is going on with my jugs, but they seem to be trying to wean L on their own.  He seems to be constantly hungry and when I try to pump, I am getting hardly anything.  This normally wouldn't be a problem, but this mama is going to NYC in a couple weeks and leaving the baby at home!  So he needs some milky.  I have a few bags in the freezer and am trying to make myself pump a few times a day to increase my supply, but I am already having self dialogue to reassure my brain that he will be 10 months by that time and I am feeling okay about formula for the weekend if needs be.

-  So YEAH... I'm going to NYC bitches!!!  Woot woot!!  I am on the western half of the United States so New York is not just a place I can go to regularly.  I've never been.  And I'm SO excited!!!  Every time I see it on a show I get all giddy!  I watched "Friends With Benefits" the other day (fucking hilarious!) and there's a whole section of the show where she is showing him around New York.  It made me happy in my pants.  P.S. Eastern half of the US... I have been to Las Vegas a lot though.  You should go there.  I'll meet you.

-  Back to the weight loss sitch.  It's not going very well.