Teetering on the Edge

When you are overwhelmed or stressed, are you one of those people that can just plow right through, do what needs to be done and come through the other side?  Or are you like me, and at some point, hit a brick wall and just shut yourself down?

I'm dangerously close to shut down mode right now.  (And I can't even drink whiskey.  Mother fuck.)

It boils down to this: we had to do a short sale on a home we own.  It's not really working out and I've had to compile documents from Before Christ it seems.  We are living in a rental right now and have been looking for a new place to buy.  We found one but now we are going through inspections and appraisals and all that dumb shit.  Meanwhile, landlord at said rental decides to sell his house as well and calls to tell me that there is a showing tonight.  I'm a pretty clean person so it's not like I have to spend 2 whole days cleaning up the joint or anything, but there's still underwear on the floor sometimes and dusting is a fucking nuisance so I haven't done that in a year or two. 

So now there's a gathering of all papers ever processed in my life, the cleaning of the entire house, and it's year end at my job (I do accounting so that means I also want to drink on the job right now.)

Oh yeah and I have sciatica so bad that if I step on my right foot just right I burst into tears because of the pain.

But I digress.  My recent goals have been to be a more positive and pleasant person to be around.  I'm trying really hard to wade through all this bull shit without yelling or crying or complaining.  Well, except here.  You guys are like legally obligated to listen to me complain.  I think it's in the blogger's rule book or something. 

I'm just saying serenity now and hope nothing else comes up this week.  Or I might just hibernate in my bed for the next 3 months.