The Story

As I've said before, I'm going to New York next week.  (Pause for happy dance, peeing my pants a little, and a little jumping up and down.)  I remember getting my period sometime before Christmas and timing it out to see if I'd be on my period in NYC or not because that would suck balls.  I figured out that it would come a couple of weeks before the trip so I would be in the clear.

Monday I was skyping with Oak and Kelly and telling them how I might be done having babies.  I had put some stuff up for sale online but when a girl called about the doppler, I just couldn't sell it!  I gave some thought to calling my doctor for an IUD that day, but didn't.  Later that night, I started thinking, "Hmm, my NY trip is only a week away and I still haven't had a period."  I wasn't really worried because they have been anywhere from 28-35 day cycles.  I had a HPT under my sink obviously because who doesn't?  So I decided to take it, fully expecting a negative.

You know how you can watch the pee-pee spread across the window?  Well I did that and it turned positive AS it was moving across the screen.  I started laughing, pretty much hysterically and my son heard me and asked what I was laughing at.  I walked out of the bathroom with the stick and thrust it in my husband's face while simultaneously laughing, crying, and saying Fuck over and over again. 

The last few days have been mostly shock and awe but I am starting to come around to the idea.  Of course I am ecstatic that my body worked and that I will have another child, but I am also a little nervous about having babies 18 months apart (HFS!)  It just doesn't feel real yet so I haven't really experienced strong emotion about it either way. 

All of the miscarriages I've had were in the 5th week, which I think is now, but again, not totally sure.  So after next week I'm sure it will get real.  I called the doctor and asked about the anti-depressants I am taking.  She said to continue on with them and that we'll most likely wean in the second trimester because the concern comes with the third trimester as I guess some babies born with that in their system are more lethargic and don't respond as well to stimuli.  My first appointment is February 24th and then we will discuss it further and make a plan.

Another baby.  Wow.