You know how I told you I'm lucky and get to work part time? Well today I have gone ahead and made my life more difficult for myself. I'm a fucking idiot.
I have been considering going to nursing school for the past couple of years. I have put it off a number of times thinking I would have a newborn by yester-year. About a year ago, I applied for a phlebotomy training program through the local big hospital system. It's an entry level job and it doesn't pay DICK but since I have been an accountant for the past decade, I figured I would have to start somewhere.
So kinda forgot about this job til they called me last month for an interview. I figured I might as well check it out and long story short, I got the f-ing job. I say f-ing job because now I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO. It pays so little that I can't afford to quit my other part time job (which also has benefits.)
So I have decided to do both. What the fuck?
I just can't seem to turn it down because like a GAZILLION people applied for it (ok 525 people) and only TEN were hired. The company is willing to let me be on call and only work 12 hours a pay period after the initial training period.
The problem is the initial training period is 40 hours a week for 6 weeks.
So now I have committed to doing the training program and still working my other job, which is 24 hours a week.
How will I ever do this you ask?
Ummmm yeah, OBVIOUSLY I have no fucking clue.
I keep telling myself that it's only 6 weeks and then I will have a job in the medical field to get my feet wet and a toe in the door. If I decide to switch eventually they offer benefits for 24 hours a week including tuition reimbursement.
But then I also keep telling myself that I'm going to want to shoot myself in the eye after 3 days of this.
So, in true BU fashion, I keep over-analyzing it. I'm an accountant, what can I say?
Er, fuck, I'm a phlebotomist or something.
Advice?
No advice, but plenty of support! You CAN do this! Six weeks is nothing, my friend. Keep the end in sight. I am super proud of you for taking this leap and trying to find a career that you love. Congrats on the new job!!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh I wish I had advice...but congrats on being choosen...best of luck, I hope it works out for you & the next 6 weeks just fly by.
ReplyDeleteWell done on getting selected! That's an incredible achievement. You've clearly been thinking about this for a long time... Does it feel like your heart is trying to tell you something but the 'sensible' head part doesn't want you to listen? I really hope you find peace with whichever decision you make. x
ReplyDeleteYeah- kudos on being selected... but no good advice I'm afraid.
ReplyDeleteIf you think you can do it, go for it- I juggled going to school full time and working almost full time with IF treatments and my husband... it was really hard, so there are no delusions there about time constraints and family, so I stand by my "if you think you can handle it, give it a try"
What's the worst that can happen? (besides you being exhausted and overwhelmed... which is HARD on your mind and body... no delusions there) But what I'm saying is, okay maybe you get overwhelmed and quit one of them- right? Not the end of the world, and you're back at square one for a time. It will be okay (*hugs*)
I support whatever you decide, because that is a tough decision hun. Good luck!