WTF

Ok, first of all, every time I try to post on somebody's blog it says I do not have access to their page and to log out and try again.  Does anyone know why the FUCK this is happening?  It's super annoying when I have a brilliant comment typed out and then it gets mother fucking deleted.  (Also the comments probably aren't that brilliant.)

Next, I decided to medicate.  It hasn't been an easy decision and I'm having issues about the anti-depressant crossing into the breast milk.  But I spoke with Dr. Awesome's nurse, Nurse Awesome and she was what else, awesome.  We discussed everything I've been doing to help with the depression and anxiety and it went a little something like this:

NA: "Are you exercising regularly?"
BU: "4-5 days a week."
NA: "Have you tried yoga?"
BU: "Every Wednesday night I take a yoga class."
NA: "Are you eating a balanced diet?"
BU: "Yes."
NA: "Have you thought about seeing a counselor?"
BU: "I'm going twice a month already."

So after that conversation, she assured me that I am doing everything possible to make it better and that my baby needs me to be the best I can be and if that means taking meds, then let's do it.  I'm on the lowest dose possible and now that I finally made the decision and started the medication, I am so relieved!  Of course, it takes 2-3 weeks for it to really kick in, but I feel good about my choice and confident that I will be returning to my normal self soon.  I've been far too quiet, reflective, overwhelmed and just plain sad lately. 

I'm making a big assumption that anyone is still reading because this post is boring and probably a little TMI, but if you're still here, nice work.  Way to hang in there.  I will return to funny things and more of the F word tomorrow.