Have you heard enough about depression from me? Well fuck off then. Just kidding. Don't fuck off. Just keep reading.
I've felt so great the last few months and grateful that I am still on meds. My doctor and I decided that toward the end of the 2nd trimester I will start weaning off the meds so baby girl doesn't have any effects at birth. (I guess if the babies have it in their system they are a little more lethargic.) I've been nervous about it but feeling so good that I felt I could cope. Today I woke up with a case of the blues and now I am reminded of what it's like to be in that dark place and I'm pretty much scared to wean now. (I haven't even started yet!)
I'm sure it will be fine and only temporary but I hate this feeling so much. I made an appointment for a massage, have a movie date with friends tonight and am going to go walk in the sun if it decides to come out today. I might need you dudes to remind me to keep doing this stuff.
Especially the massage part.
Depression is such a bitch. One only a few steps away from getting an actual rx (again, weaned off when we started ttc). It is so hard to lift yourSELF out of one of the dark days, even when you know you're in the midst of one. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI had a comment written and then it disappeared. Annoying. It was something to the effect of supporting you during your wean with drunken antics...although that just might make you more depressed so scratch that.
ReplyDeleteInstead I'll take photos of this maternity belt I'm weaning right now and send it on a daily basis that should help you to feel better.
Ugh, I'm sorry you're struggling with (or possibly in the future, struggling with) this again. No fucking fun. A massage and movie date night sounds wonderful!
ReplyDeleteKeep doing this stuff. :) Ive been through a prettyyyy bad depression before myself, so I know all about it. Just keep pushing yourself to fun things like you are doing :) Lots to look forward to! Do a little baby girl retail therapy...
ReplyDeleteI wish I had something to say or do to make this period go away for you :( But know that I am always just a FaceTime away if you ever need to vent or cry. Love you very much lady....you have gotten through these before, and you will again. Xoxox
ReplyDelete