I went to the fertility clinic yesterday for my beta. They called me last night to tell me the results and to recommend that I re-test for lupus anticoagulant (I've tested positive once and negative once) just to make sure I shouldn't be on some medications.
So I went back early this morning. This is when they do egg retrievals.
The waiting room was full of couples.
I almost cried.
I just don't understand why there are so many people that have fertility issues. And I don't understand how before I had them, I was so unaware and naive about it. But mostly, I don't understand how people and insurance companies don't comprehend that infertility is a real medical problem. I had somebody compare IVF to getting a boob job once.
I am so sad for all of us. That this - THIS has to be our memory of getting pregnant, or NOT getting pregnant. It's overwhelming and even though it all happens for a reason, believing that doesn't make this any easier.
Have you heard the saying "it's not the destination, it's the journey"? Well in our case, it IS the destination and my god we just hope the journey will make it worth it in the end.
What a great post- I totally agree. Hope the testing goes well, and I hope the beta rises beautifully (are you getting a repeat, I just assumed!)
ReplyDeleteAmen! I think most people are naive about what we go through emotionally, physically, financially, socially, etc. We must be advocates for ourselves and other couples to spread the word. It's been such a private thing, but I hope that when word gets out, insurance companies will finally cover expenses. Hopefully in our lifetime.
ReplyDeleteI hope so, too! Hang in there ... one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteHey there! I just started reading your blog. I found you on Stress Free Infertility Blog. First off CONGRATULATIONS! Second off, you're hilarious. I was just laughing out loud reading your post about this not being Germany or Russia or whatever. I was cracking up and couldn't agree with you more. You are "uber" funny. ;-)
ReplyDeleteSo happy to hear about your recent beta! Congrats...and what you said is so true. Hopefully by the time our children are grown, God willing - they won't even ever have to worry about this problem. And if they do, the way the world views infertility will be so different than the one we know.
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